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I haven't told anyone this...

I lost my two bracelets that I wear everyday! I got them at different Buddhist temples in Korea. I've worn one of them for 4 years.

It happened about a week ago, and since I was pretty sure I lost it in my room I thought they were gonna reappear soon.

Today I ended up deep cleaning my room (spotted my least favorite bug, silverfish) and I still haven't found it... and yet I still can't accept the fact that I lost them.

Until the day I move out I will think about the bracelets and hope I'll find them when I'm packing.

I AM SAD! I AM NOTORIOUSLY BAD AT LETTING THINGS GO...

I'm not good at accepting that people and things and everything are fleeting

gahhh so sad. so so sad.

whenever people tell me that I'm good at "keeping in touch" with people, it's because once I consider them my friend I don't let them go (unless something insane happens).

My high school friend S came to visit me this past week.

We see each other once a year, which requires more commitment and effort than I thought.

Hanging out with S made me realize, (besides the friends who live in the same city) I see my Really Good Friends maybe once or twice a year (if we're really lucky) and we barely text or call.

I don't share everything about my daily life with any of them (I am not a texter like that) and most of them are not active on social media.

I still consider them my best friends though, because... we are?

On the other hand...

it's really great to hang out with/run into neighbor friends often. It's really great to be neighbors/roommates with friends. Dream of (my name)-town continues...

I hope the bracelets come back to me...

been enjoying this album